My Heart Caved In♥

I'm suppose to do tease me tuesdays today, but today has just been a down day for my
my granmother passed today

I don't know what to do with myself honestly
I was just speaking to my cousin on thursday about her and she told me how sick she was
then I called my best friend and told "I think my grandma is going to die", but I never thought it would've been 5 days later
I had gotten a call from someone back home. I didn't know who it was. Something told me to answer, but I just rolled over and went back to sleep :(
woke up 5 minutes later to get up to go out with my best friend, went downstairs and my dad told me
I just collapsed. I couldn't breathe. My chest felt so heavy. I couldn't see. I couldn't think. I couldn't do anything
I haven't seen her in 8 years, but she's always been in my heart and mind.
My cousin told me she gave her a kiss for me the day we talked and she just smiled
I just wish I could've said good bye. Even though she wasn't talking, I wish I could've told her how much I loved her and missed her before she went. I hope she was proud of me.
I've never really seen my dad cry til today. I cried with him too!
my best friend took me out to help me clear my head and not think about it so much
It helped, but then I got back home and can't stop crying again.
I close my eyes, but their still flowing out.
I love you Ama. Always and forever♥

Feeling Myself

So these past couple days, I've had alot of days to think to myself, especially when my little cousin was gone lol. In that time, my phone was going off like crazy
(it's weird when i'm busy is when it goes off alot, but when i'm free it never rings) and a couple of those times, it was a guy
now i'm single, so I feel like I can talk to whoever and how many ppl I want, I'm not committed to anyone

but lately with these dudes textin me, I realize why I'm single

I got too many things to be worried in my life, I don't have time for none of these guys
I see why I haven't made my way around to see ANY of them. Not that I'm always busy, I just don't feel like going

I'm feeling myself too much right now. I'm trying to get on my grind and a guy would just get in the way of that right now

so if you one of those guys, and u reading this, dn't be surprised when I don't reply to your text

My babe is BACK!!!

and ya'll thought he was done. HA!
couple of his songs have been leaking, the latest are ABC and Smash(LOVES IT!)
go check them out...waiting for an official single CB :)

Tease Me Tuesday

<♥Christopher Brown♥

also known as Chris Brown or C Breezy

some of you may not like him, and that's fine

but I do....

you can't deny he looks good though! ;)

Caribbeans do it best!

sorry ppl, I been having a long 2 wks
It was caribfest out here in Houston last week
I had the biggest blast!
Being from the caribbean (DOMINICA!!!!) I always have fun wit my caribbean ppl
but this week I just been catching up on sleep
here's some pics from my wknd

;) the DJ that had my eye the whole week lol ;)

Since Keri's Stronger

So this is my song of the moment!

Don't get me wrong, I LOVE MJB

but I heard Keri's version first, an i'm just addicted to it!

the song just speaks to me so much

I've experienced alot of things in my life

from problems with friendship, family, and myself

but everything I been through, only allowed me to better myself

I never let anything keep me down....for too long

It made me who I am today....Stronger!

Love Game

So I got my hair done on saturday

thought i'd share it with ya'll :)
anyway, I put a new layout on the page
It's summer, and though I like dark colors, I decided to go somewhat bright
the reason I chose Love Game for this post is cuz of Lady Gaga
well not her, but my BFF

(that's her fav song)

that's her^^^^^

well it's funny cuz we just found our way bacc to each other

fell off cuz of some stupid drama

but we bacc by popular demand! lol

been doing it for 6 years

we can't be stopped!!!

to the bestie Jay Z!