Time Got the Best of Me

Sorry I've been so absent...okay I went MIA for a minute

I started school on the 31st of Aug so I been hella busy

This is the only free time i've had to come on here in a LONG TIME

I'm doing 15 hours, done every MWF by 12 and Tues/Thurs. by 2

after that, either it's study, homework, or getting into something wit the girls

oh yea, the girls....

and the guys....

(lol)

SO WHEN YOU SEE ME YOU GON' SEE MY GOONS!!!!

so i'll try to update as often as possible...right now, i'm about to head to dallas wit the girls

it goes down at the Cotton Bowl....ttyl!

An Angel Gone Too Soon

Today marks the 8 year anniversary of Aaliyah's death. For those of you who don't remember or don't know, Aaliyah died in a plane crash on this date 8 years ago when she was leaving Bermuda from shooting the video for her song "Rock The Boat". Aaliyah and the 9 other passengers, including the pilot, all died when the plane crashed.
I remember I idolized Aaliyah so much as a little girl. I wanted to be a singer like her so I would sit in the mirror and sing her songs all the time.
The world was robbed of such an amazing person too soon, but she's in a better place now

Now here's a vid for your pleasure that I found a couple years back. It includes a tribute to Aaliyah and Left Eye. Enjoy!
http://s12.photobucket.com/albums/a227/CiCi_Fanni8/Aaliyah/fan%20made/?action=view&current=AaliyahandLeftEyeTLCMusicVideo-Trib.flv

Paparazzi

It's funny how people are so bothered with what I'm doing in my life. Always watching my every move and going to report back to ppl who DON'T even know me at all

what's your point?!?!

It just pisses me off when people think they know me and goes around saying things about me. i don't know you! you don't know me or what I do in my private life. Just because you see me here and there with such person doesn't mean you know what's going on.

Don't assume things. You know what they say about ppl who assume lol.

I guess Lady Gaga said it right: "I'm your biggest fan I'll follow you till you love me, paparazzi". But, you know who you are, thank you for taking time out of your day to worry about what I'm doing. If you gonna talk though, get ur facts straight. Tis' all!

oh yea...
mellow face you hoes!

Where would I be...

I been through alot in my life, I must say
but through it all, there have been ppl who have been there for me
ppl I can actually call friends
I love them to death♥
so here they are...my real friends :D (in no particular order lol)


The Girlz!!!! Key, Tiff, Maiya & Kayla. What would college be without ya'll. I can honestly say I know i've made some life long friends my freshman yr. We seen it all and did it all in 1 yr. We had our ups and downs, but we were always there for each other. Love ya'll!


One of the besties K. Davis. As u can see, we in deep conversation, that's how we stay. I can talk to this girl about anything and vice versa. We been friends since soph. yr in HS, and going in strong. If Mrs. Billings could break us up (lol), no one can.


Bestie Jay Z. Go back like 4 flats on a cadillac (how old is that saying lol). She was the first person I met when I moved to alief in 03 and we been besties ever since. I can honestly say we been through it mane. If only ya'll knew how many times we stopped talking then start again lol. It's ridiculous, but we always make our way back to each other.


Jamarcus my love♥. I remember first meeting u in Mrs. Schmock class jr yr. U are honestly the most uncontrollably AMAZING person I have met. It's funny how we became close after we left HS. I have so much fun with you. Your one of the few ppl I can stay on the phone with for hours and not be annoyed lol.

The bestie Zay & my gurl Faidat. Zay is the partner in crime foreal. We do everything together. She's just as crazy as me, but she tries to play innocent. No one can fuck wit us, we quick to pull out the AKs and M16 lol jk. No she's my chick I love her.

Faidat ,I remember when we hated each other soph yr lol. Now look at us. Your an amazing person and your so funny. Every time I think of u I think of the night we were driving to warehouse live. Now I know to be quiet as a mouse when you're driving on a freeway lmao. love ya girl!

I'm Goin In

Hey ppl, just checkin in
I haven't been on here since my grandma passed, so I thought i'll let ya'll know what's up with me
I feel alot better now. I cried for 3 days straight. My best friend even tried taking me out, but whenever it would come to my mind I would just break down. It's been really hard for me to deal with. I'm very big on family so to lose someone I love takes a huge toll on me. I think i cried more than anyone in my whole family
I'm doing alot better now though. I just came back from san antonio with my family (including my uncle who just got back from afghanistan and his son, kaiden, my aunt annemarie and her daughter, kalanee)
I had sooo much fun!
the only downside is, my face is now as dark as nite lol
i'll be spending these next few weeks in the house trying to get my color back
but i'll be bringing pics of that trip soon
stay up ppl, cuz I know I will♥

My Heart Caved In♥

I'm suppose to do tease me tuesdays today, but today has just been a down day for my
my granmother passed today

I don't know what to do with myself honestly
I was just speaking to my cousin on thursday about her and she told me how sick she was
then I called my best friend and told "I think my grandma is going to die", but I never thought it would've been 5 days later
I had gotten a call from someone back home. I didn't know who it was. Something told me to answer, but I just rolled over and went back to sleep :(
woke up 5 minutes later to get up to go out with my best friend, went downstairs and my dad told me
I just collapsed. I couldn't breathe. My chest felt so heavy. I couldn't see. I couldn't think. I couldn't do anything
I haven't seen her in 8 years, but she's always been in my heart and mind.
My cousin told me she gave her a kiss for me the day we talked and she just smiled
I just wish I could've said good bye. Even though she wasn't talking, I wish I could've told her how much I loved her and missed her before she went. I hope she was proud of me.
I've never really seen my dad cry til today. I cried with him too!
my best friend took me out to help me clear my head and not think about it so much
It helped, but then I got back home and can't stop crying again.
I close my eyes, but their still flowing out.
I love you Ama. Always and forever♥

Feeling Myself

So these past couple days, I've had alot of days to think to myself, especially when my little cousin was gone lol. In that time, my phone was going off like crazy
(it's weird when i'm busy is when it goes off alot, but when i'm free it never rings) and a couple of those times, it was a guy
now i'm single, so I feel like I can talk to whoever and how many ppl I want, I'm not committed to anyone

but lately with these dudes textin me, I realize why I'm single

I got too many things to be worried in my life, I don't have time for none of these guys
I see why I haven't made my way around to see ANY of them. Not that I'm always busy, I just don't feel like going

I'm feeling myself too much right now. I'm trying to get on my grind and a guy would just get in the way of that right now

so if you one of those guys, and u reading this, dn't be surprised when I don't reply to your text