The Beat of My Heart

Music=LIFE #Pointblankperiod

so I was going to post a list of my top 25 songs played, according to my itunes, but then I realized it's songs I haven't listened to in a longggg while. So I'll post the top 25 songs that I listening to the most, no specific order

.Me'Shell Ndegeocello- Fool Of Me

.Alicia Keys- Unthinkable

.Beyonce- Hello

.Monica- Stay Or Go

.Amy Winehouse- Best Friends

.Alicia Keys- Lesson Learned

.Keri Hilson- Where Did He Go

.Michael Jackson- Stranger In Moscow

.Jazmine Sullivan- Holdin' You Down

.Trey Songz- Can't Be Friends

.Wiz Khalifa- When You Find

.Dondria- You're The One

.Drake- Paris Morton Music

.T.I.- Got Ya Back

.Fantasia- Bittersweet

.K. Michele- Can't Do This

.J Cole- Problems

.Marsha Ambrosius- Hope She Cheats on You (With A Basketball Player)

.Chrisette Michele- All I Ever Think About

.Toni Braxton- In The Morning

.Gym Class Heroes- Viva La White Girl

.Tyra B- Still In Love

.Michael Jackson- Human Nature

.Chris Brown- Heart to Heart

.Ciara- My Love

yea, so I'm a bit of an R&B junkie, but I listen to all kinds of music. Majority of the songs I just listed all related to situations I'm in/have been in so they help me get through a lot of shit. Hope it does the same for you!

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summer came, and now summer is leaving. It's only about 3 more weeks till school starts and I'm excited!

I can't wait to see what the upcoming semester holds for me and my girls. We about to be juniors now. WHOOP!

This summer has been quit the crazy one tho. Dealing with relationships, broken friendships and all other sort of stuff...#tooblasty lol

well I'm glad it's over and ready to start anew. I got big things planned for myself US this coming year. Nothing or NO ONE is gonna hold me/us back! BALEE DAT!

Last Night....

Last night was the first time I cried myself to sleep

woke up and cried again

Don't know how many more nights like this I'll have

I feel like a part of me is missing that I might not ever get back.....

If u ask me, I'm ready!

So in the wake of all that's been going on with Haiti (may God be with them in their time of need) it got me thinking to a lot of things. That could have easily been my family back home in Dominica. That could have easily been me and my loved ones dead 9 years ago when a volcano became active. I'm thankful to God that it wasn't though.

I wish I could do something to help the Haitians. Anything helps, even the smallest amount so I've decided to donate clothes and money to them as they are in their time of need. Seeing my Caribbean people in such turmoil and distress hurts me and I want to do whatever I can and able to for them.

I want to make a difference in the world or someone's life one day. Hopefully, when I get my degree, I can do just that. I can save someone from going to jail for the rest of their lives or save them from being executed.

I have big dreams for myself. I want to help my country when I get deep into my career. I want to help my family members back home be well off. I don't want to see my island suffer. If u ask me, I'm ready and willing to make a difference.

and the beat goes on....

This Christmas break has been crazy for me, yet eventful. I got back on good terms with my best friend, I was working, got a car, and just experienced too much unnecessary drama.

It's funny, the people that I tried to leave in 2009 seem to make their way back into my life in the new year. Don't get me wrong, they're not the ones that's always the bad seed, I did my share of dirt too, but I'm trying to correct things in my life and start anew in 2010. Of course, I'll still be the same person, but some old habits I had are gonna die.

I let one person too many come into my life and just allowed me to go against everything I believe in. My problem was not knowing how to let go. Well I have. It didn't end well either, but maybe it was for the best it ended so badly. That way, I CAN'T and WON'T back track!

2010 is gonna be a great year for me though. I allowed myself to be held back in the past, but not again. I'm back into my writing. Poetry is my passion and I want to see how far it will take me. Maybe I'll go back to submitting them to contest also. I'm starting school nxt tuesday and doing 18 hours so that's gonna be QUITE the challenge, but it's something I'm ready for. Wish me luck!

Just Venting....

I hate you. I can’t stand you. You hurt me. I hurt you. I’m sorry. No I’m not. I want to take it back. It’s too late. I meant everything I said. You meant what you said. Too far to go back now. What’s said can’t be undone. I hope you read this. I know you probably will. You delete me from your page. I delete you from my life. Who’s making the bigger change now? You were more drama than happiness. More sorrow than laughter. More heart ache than smiles. More headaches than joy. You’re so fucking stupid. I didn’t do it. You brought us here. To the point where I don’t want to see your face. To the point where the hate is bone deep. To the point where I don’t care at all. To the point of no return. Whatever. I stopped caring a long time ago. I lied. Whatever. Your easy to let go. I’m moving on. Moral of the story: you hurt me, I damage your heart. Ruthless, I know. Hey, that’s life!